How can our past affect our future?

First Love.....Is it Love for life or a Mess?

Do you still remember your first love? It is really a sarcastic question! C'mon just says 'yes', because everyone does. We don't remember it on our daily basis but somehow we do. All relationships are beautiful. None can ever forget its first love ever. But it always gives us a lesson of love or sometimes the pain for the rest of life. We all know the feeling of being “in love” with someone. I can say to them, “Enjoy your time while you can, don't know how time will change and what will happen in the future.”

Well, I have fallen in Love for the very first time at the age of 18 and that time I was sweet, shy, tender, innocent, immature and full of sensitivity. The relationship was beautiful and full of love. It was a passionate young relationship that we couldn’t get enough of each other. Lots of immaturities were also there but beyond it, it was so perfect for me and my love was my first priority. We had shared lots of good memories, a lot of good moments, we had had amazing experiences and, I was so much in love and wanted to be with him forever. But in spite of so much love and promises, we broke up. Because in our lives we face the brutal reality that sometimes the person you love, he is not much compatible and at this moment you have to be fair enough for yourself. Then, you either suffer together and move on happily. So, I tried to move on but somehow, it affects me, my mind, my thoughts or even my relationship. 

We all know that we can't fully recover to our first love but I really want to forget him forever. After the break-up, I have realized that I was in need of somebody who is more responsible to handle the responsibilities as well as me too, someone with a good sense of humor who could make me laugh when I want to cry, and the most important one, who can understand me or my situation completely because now there is no need of immaturity in my life. I had done lots of mistakes but now I want a stability or a stable relationship where I can hold on to someone who loves me without any terms and conditions. 

First love, it doesn’t give only love but the experience as well– sometimes it teaches us a lesson, and we can’t help but only can learn to it. People say first love never dies, but in reality, it does. Because the person we love as our first love, he does completely change after some ups and downs of life. However, the ghost of our experiences from our first love often tries to haunt our future relationships. But I have made up my mind that it’s the lessons I have learned and I’ll take with myself, and not the baggage!