Sometimes I really think that how alone I am in my life. What will happen if I won't be able to talk, with whom m living? How could I manage myself if the people won't support me, where m living and m surrounded?
Sometimes I got afraid of it that now m living it and really m not feeling alone. I have my own friends with whom I can enjoy. Whether they are close to me or far from me, I really feel special with them. Prhs none will understand it. Maybe my behavior gonna bother everyone. No one will understand me ever even not my situation or not my condition.
What is more painful?
Attempting suicide
or
burdens of people?
I've been trying to be alone for a while. And I was quite happy with it. Really I was enjoying being single. But again someone came in my life, when I was about to get my happiness, it ruined brutally. Prhs the reason was only me, bcoz I trusted people and told them about my happiness. And then the society came to judge me. They made me feel the worst feeling and so cheap like how could I even breathe?
If a guy wants to do anything they can, but if we talk about girls they should be a pride of her family. She has to think again n again for others just to be a good girl or to fit in the society. What is she feeling, no one going to understand that, even don't wanna know anyone what's her desire.
Well, we are in India, 'Incredible India'. Where people give you the character certificate, after watching your shorts n dresses. If you are talking to boy's, you gonna be the one who attracts them towards you. If you gonna drink or party with boys, they will feel that you are tempting them to rape you. They won't ever stop judging you, whether they are right or wrong.
All are happy in their life but not exactly me. Now, I don't know what will make me happy or what should I do for my happiness. But still, I don't have any answers to it.
Now I am totally going to depend upon You 'Bhagwan Ji'. Please help me out to this hell and let me feel comfortable. Bcoz m really feeling so helpless.
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